omgee, Katy Perry wrote a song about my drama queen ass. So, as per my posts, you all see how much of a drama queen I've become.
On the train, is time where thoughts wander about from damn, that lady smells like cat to ooo...cute shoes to fuck, it's only queens plaza thought it was roosevelt to more philisophical stuff like today's thought about self worth.
I realized today, on the train, sitting next to a lady (who whacked her damn cat haired coat sleeve all up on the spout of my grande two-pump soy chai latte, while trying to get her coat on) that appearance, running endurance and school grades determined my self worth...Needless to say I haven't felt too worthy lately.
I missed that time of my life, back in the day (2 mos. ago) where I liked what I had in my closet, running 10 miles was chump change, and when I ...actually had fabulous grades. My self worth was at an all time high! Now it sorta feels like an effin' joke. I need to make some GD changes - STAT. bc i refuse to be that girl who wallows in self-pity w/o plans. I'd rather be a drama queen who makes changes until I'm awesome once again.
Sooooo....time to make mistakes and get messy!
let's start with a nap, shall we?
-c
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