Vomitrocious

1 yr ago; we found week old broccoli water in a pot - smelled like decomposing remnants of...dirty broccoli?? That made me want to vomit as well.


I wanted to vomit today. You know how when you do something embarrassing or you think back at a time where you felt humiliated? Well, every time some memory pops up that I felt embarrassed about, I literally picture myself throwing up from the humiliation. wonky, huh?

For example, I went on my occasional reflecting trip, I usually go on these while simultaneously in the process of procrastinating - like now. I remember back in the day when I was a newbie at the 'drinking scene'. I didn't know what my tolerance was and threw up - consistently. People had to 'take care' of me. I'm sure we're all familiar with those situations. Anyway, CONFESSion: I think some of those times, I was actually quite sober & was totally conscious of what was going on - I have no clue why I put up those fronts. Um.. that was so dumb...

What I did see though, was how people treat the drunk - kinda like you're a 'tard or something. In retrospect, that was definitely not cool & I probably made some dumbass 1st, 2nd & 3rd impressions on people. I now realize the importance of 'keeping it together'.

If I could change something, I'm not sure I would. Bc I am much less naive because of it. So, CHEERS to LIFE LESSONS & not feeling like a 'tard!

you too,
c